I cannot even explain the feelings of mixed emotions when at last i saw her and hear her crying for the first time, she was what i ever asked from Allah, she's the best gift i received this year, i may not ask Allah of anything but her. She is my life now, i never even care about myself before like i did now, she meant a lot to me, i cannot even leave her alone. i always want her to be beside me, when i am watching her, the bliss, the fulfillment and satisfaction of my being are all present.
The feeling of becoming a mother cannot be compared to anything in this world. As for me, being a mother is to dedicate all your life to your child no matter how she/he was ever made, either by mistake, or out of marriage or of being inlove. Children are Allah's gift. We must treasure them. They are very precious, the most precious among all the material things on earth.
I cannot even imagine that suddenly i become a mother, not even in my mere dreams, but i am wishing one day to be one and to have a happy family, Allah listens to what i am always praying, Allah gave me the most beautiful and most cute baby girl in the world, although He did not give me the best husband, i am still thankful that the father of my child never leave me alone from the start he knew i am bearing his child.
Maybe it's true that "you can't always get whatever you want". Maybe were not really meant to be together, he's living thousand miles away from us, i never regret having a baby out of marriage, Allah is great for He knows what He is doing, as i am always praying that Allah give me the man who will love me, protect me and will never leave me behind, Allah gave me my husband. My husband followed me from his country to mine. We got married in Muslim rites, even if i am already 5 months pregnant that time, i am thankful that whatever mistakes i have done, we tried to make it right together.